still fighting it.

things i found out tonight:

• my aunt millie assembled a bomb and put it in her neighbor’s mailbox sometime in the recent past. she’s gotta be like 80 years old. no one was hurt, but his mailbox did end up in a tree. she said it was to teach him a lesson for calling the cops on her all the time for stupid reasons. the cops never suspected her. she offered to help anthony make one to blow up that tree he had to buy these people since he ran theirs over.
• my grandma interacted with mafia members growing up.
• my mom once had a crazy party where horses were ridden through the house.
• my cousin went to school with that chick from that jersey shore show.

ariel’s house is an abyss that lighters never return from! just came back to discover i do not have my lighter, the lighter anthony switched with me because i had those shitty ace ones. the second lost there in 3 days. and now i have to use a shitty ace one. again. or possibly matches kelsey gave me, so i can smoke this bowl.

tonight was really fun though. gift giving was exceptional.

have you ever looked at lancaster city on google maps?

it’s kind of unsettling. i’ve been in parts of the sprawling cemetary that sits to the side of lancaster, but it looks especially eerie and ominous from an aerial view.

it’s like an adjoining town full of dead people.

2009 recap

janurary - slowly severing ties with nicole and eddie. hanging out with woody and brandon and ariel+kelsey+company more. guys interested in me for some reason. happy to have a new crowd. finish working at the godforsaken children’s place, start at goodwill.

february - brandon and i start dating on my birthday (mustache party occurs), and i get my paul b tattoo soon thereafter.

march - things with brandon going swell. hanging out with friends.

april - shit hits fan with nicole and eddie, i do that thing where i never talk to them again. feel like everyone hates me for a while, realize they don’t. resume hanging.

may - warm weather! more hanging out. stomping grounds shows!

june - totaled car, totaled bones, hospital, watching flowers die, some visitors visit, a lot of people send cards. fucked up on pain killers. home, hospital bed. can’t move my legs, can’t eat much. bedridden. bedpan. pain. crushing depression. brandon sticks by me.

july - can scoot into a wheelchair. reel splatter shoots some of long pig in my driveway. therapy, moving my legs. my arm heals. kelsey’s surprise party in the chair. stopping some pain meds. withdrawal. searing pain. shower, bathroom. depression, disappointment. brandon visits. isabella is born.

august - waddling around with a walker/cane. still have a cast on one leg. trying to keep busy. still depressed. brandon visits.

september - cast comes off. parents leave for a weekend. anthony throws a big party. feel better until parents come home. still pretty down. driving poorly. meet strasburg? i think that was september. maybe october.

october -driving more, better. i discover my destroyed cd collection. halloween night i drive to etown for the first time since the accident, go to my first reel splatter party, get drunk and throw up for the first time, and get to sleep over at brandon’s.

november - actually see friends again. go back to work, get my job back.

december - blizzard, disappointment, shittiness it seems.